The past weeks have been particularly trying for me. God is continuing to teach me things day by day. And some days have been incredibly good - even better than a good day outside of my current trial. But few days have passed when I have not spent at least some time in mourning.

In the sermon on the mount, Jesus said “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” And I believe there is great truth to that. But only for a particular type of mourner. You see, some days I have cried because I was lonely - when Jesus, family and friends were there to meet that need. Other days I cried out of a deep feeling of loss - even though God continually reminds me of what I have, and that hope remains for the future. But most days I have cried over a deep realization of my own sin and brokenness, and how it has affected myself and my loved ones. And it is in those moments when God has most comforted me.

I know that God has forgiven me. I have confessed my sins to Christ, and He is faithful to remember them no more. But I remember them. As do those who I’ve sinned against. And so I mourn. But God is comforting me. And every day He is reminding me how valuable I am to Him.

Father, show me when it is appropriate to mourn, and comfort me when I do so. And show me a future when I will mourn no longer.

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